People of Prayer

I see a people of prayer that are rising up. Men and women that will sell out, forsaking all things to follow Him. Men and women who devote their lives to be an offering, a living sacrifice unto Yahuah. These are the mighty men, the men of valor. These fight for the lives, for the souls of the lost sheep. These men and women will truly find Love, and live there continuously, offering up prayers for the body, laying their lives down for their friends. These will be the ones to usher in the end time harvest.

These men and women will not be noticed by the world; they will not receive a reward from man, but the reward that is eternal; they are storing up treasure in heaven.

These men and women will truly be dispensers of the fullness of Yahuah’s grace in this earth as the heavenly and earthly realms come into alignment in them. They will be manifesting heaven on earth, the character of Elahim: Truth and Love—Light and Life—the ultimate power. The darkness will be pressed back, and in their presence bondages will be broken, all things will be made whole, not by them, but by the Spirit at work through them.

These men and women will look foolish to the world, to the “church”, but their eyes are not set on pleasing man. They are not looking to fit in or make friends. Their eyes are set on the prize, Yahushua, and they offer themselves to Him.

These are truly transformed; living vessels of Truth, right now examples of the Word became flesh.

These do not follow the voice of another, man or spirit, but walk in tune, in sync, in step, and do not stumble, because they know and follow the voice of the Master.

Many of these will not be found standing on a stage, shouting messages from a pulpit, but will be found face down in the dark or marching on the streets, nameless, faceless as they go, always remaining in the secret place.

Are you one of these? If you think you are, how badly do you want to become everything that you have been created to be? How badly do want to be set-apart (holy) unto Yahuah? How badly do you want to look upon His glory, all of His esteem, and for Him to truly reveal Himself to you and through you? I’m not talking about visions or dreams, but for Him to show up—pillar-of-smoke-and-fire type glory that everyone can see—how bad do you want it? What are you willing to give? What are you willing to walk away from? What is holding you back, because He’s waiting for you?

Are you waiting for Godot....?

This blog was inspired by several lovely women whom I’ve recently had the opportunity to read. These profound readings brought to mind the Samuel Beckett play, “Waiting for Godot”. ”Waiting for Godot follows two days in the lives of a pair of men who divert themselves while they wait expectantly and unsuccessfully for someone named Godot to arrive. They claim him as an acquaintance but in fact hardly know him, admitting that they would not recognise him were they to see him. To occupy themselves, they eat, sleep, converse, argue, sing, play games, exercise, swap hats, and contemplate suicide — anything “to hold the terrible silence at bay”.  The play opens with the character Estragon struggling to remove his boot from his foot. Estragon eventually gives up, muttering, “Nothing to be done.” ( reprinted from Wikipedia) and thus, they spend the rest of their time “doing nothing” but waiting. I encourage you to Google the play as it is very thought provoking….That said, I was inspired by the readings AND the play…perhaps you will be too!

In the readings there seemed to be a theme that these women were “waiting” for something. In fact, each of these women validated that they were indeed “waiting” for the perfect moment, perfect relationship and to move forward at just the right time. As in the play they felt “Nothing to be done”  until everything lined up perfectly and matched exactly what  they had imagined. And so they did nothing but wait. I asked one woman if she knew what she was waiting FOR. Her answer was that she had always imagined a perfect life, with the perfect husband, the perfect family and to be perfectly happy.  She was waiting for perfection and in many ways invalidated or discounted anything that didn’t “match” that expectation of what it would look like.  In fact much of the time she couldn’t have the beautiful life she had already created for herself because it wasn’t the perfection she thought she was seeking. Again, “nothing to be done” but wait.

So is there somthing YOU are WAITING for? It could be a relationship, the perfect job,  the kids to go off to college so you can begin a new chapter in your life, for that perfect guy or woman to call, for someone to validate you. Are you waiting for ‘just the right time’? Those are just a few examples but you may have something else in mind. Now I ask you…what does whatever it is YOU are waiting for look like to you and is it what’s called a PERFECT PICTURE or ideal? You could actually have so much of your energy focused on the PERFECT that you have stopped creating and have little energy for anything else except your day-to-day “chores” and responsibilities! Have you stopped experiencing , allowing and living life in the present? Are you having what you already have? What might you have missed WHILE  you were waiting and focusing on that PERFECT PICTURE to manifest itself? It may be that the very thing or answer you are waiting for is right in front of you but your attention is somewhere else so you’ve missed it! The interesting thing is that it’s possible some of these PERFECT PICTURES that you so dearly hold on to AREN’T EVEN YOURS!

Of course you have dreams and imagine how you want your life to be.  BUT when you turn all of your focus and attention to matching something perfect, you can get a bit stuck. If you are WANTING in many ways it is like lacking something not to mention it ties up your energy! If your attention is focused on or actually IN someone else’s picture…say something your Mom wanted for you as an example, you are not even focusing on your own TRUTH.  When your energy is focused on or even caught up in a picture it’s difficult to create, you can lose motivation or give up altogether!

Well guess what? When you pull your energy and focus out of the pictures you have MORE to create WITH!  ALLOW the process to just happen! When you are allowing there’s no need to be DOING. Manifesting your dreams can be as simple as imagining the dream, letting it go and allowing it to come back to you. NO EFFORT! You don’ t need to focus outside yourself ON or IN the picture.  You don’t have to wait for Jupiter to be aligned with Mars. All your answers are within that beautiful, creative, BRILLIANT, loving YOU! Look inside yourself to find your PASSION. What YOU really dream of! It may be different from what think you SHOULD be doing, or what you always thought you WOULD be doing! It’s about BEing:-)

You have the ability and power to change your life by bringing your very essence home, so to speak. Much of what you need to do is SIMPLY bring your attention back to you and be in present time. Call back your energy from the pictures! I know it seems simple and it really is…your intent goes a long way!  Notice how it feels as you fill up with YOUR ENERGY. When your own very personal, unique energy is in your body you vibrate and shine brightly.  Your motivation comes back, you see possibilities where you thought none existed and all the things you were waiting for will begin to appear in present time. Waiting for something implies the future yet creating  happens in the here and now. So what are you waiting for? Look inside yourself! Meditate! Instead of waiting at a bus stop, passing the time, waiting for some sort of perfection focus on the feeling of YOU within YOU! Focus on how good it will FEEL when your dreams become reality! Take a moment right now, create the intent to call back all your energy and fill up with it! Just for fun repeat after me: ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO ME!

Thanks for taking a moment to read this! As always, your comments are appreciated. If you’d like a reading on this or any other subject of your choosing, contact me at Debra@Spiritlightinsight.com. For more information on Clairvoyant Readings, feel free to visit my website Spiritlightinsight.com

Shine your Light! Debbie

Addressing "Agenda" for a lover

Okay Let’s just say I happen to have happened into maybe

what might be a tragedy of errors

It’s too apparent I meant to do

nothing necessary I needed to do or say

that would prove to move me forward

improve it all  that joy might fall

                                                                    and happen

 

At least we see at least that now

closepin.

It is still unclear to me at times why I desperately try to hang on to things for such dear life that I have no control over.  I suppose for a very long time I decided I wanted to take control of each and every situation of my life.  If I did not like where the progression of life was taking me, I would strive to step in and “right” what I thought was wrong even though I was intended to walk through it.

My control is a lot like a close pin.  A close pin can grip things and hold items in place up to a certain point, but when something is too heavy for that close pin to handle, it will eventually either let go of the object or it will break under its weight.  I cannot tell you how many times I have tried to take control of every situation I have come across, but I can tell you that my grip on circumstances is a lot like a close pin.  I may be able to think I am handling it up to a certain point, but eventually I either lose grip or I break under the pressure.

Over the last six months, I have really been able to come to grips with this and to take ownership where ownership must be taken and also to let go of areas that are too heavy for me to attempt to fasten my grip to.  I have learned to rejoice in the fact that I do not have to retain control of every situation in my life.  In fact, it has been quite a joy and a relief to be able to let go of those things that I know I am not intended to carry and to give them back over to God.

In a hospital room, nine times out of ten, patients and loved ones look to us to be the strong ones.  I believe that it is alright to not feel like we need to give an answer to every question that is asked.  I think, actually a sign of maturity and a sign of validating someone’s fear or sorrow is to not shy away from actually saying, “I don’t know the answer to that question.  I cannot even begin to understand what you are facing.”  This may seem vague, but sincerity can calm hearts sometimes more than knowing all the answers to life’s questions.

I thank God for the large barriers in my life.  I also thank Him for a weak grip I really have on the issues and circumstances I find myself in.  To God be the glory, great things He continues to do.

How postmodernism kills science

In his review of Higher Superstition, Arthur R. Kantrowitz wrote in Physics Today (January 1995): “The pigeonholing of science as a white, European, bourgeois, male, etc. view of the world is taken seriously by many members of the humanities and social science faculties of our leading universities and by literary intellectuals generally. To such demystifiers, the knowledge produced by science is no more reliable than that produced by Rother ways of knowing.

As Gross and Levitt put it, “Once it has been affirmed that one discursive community is as good as another, that the narrative of science holds no privileges over the narratives of superstition, the newly minted cultural critic can actually revel in his ignorance of deep scientific ideas.

The left’s flirtation with irrationalism, its reactionary rejection of the scientific worldview, is deplorable and contradicts its own deepest traditions. …The literary intellectuals control most of the undergraduate years of people who go on to become teachers, lawyers and journalists. To an alarming degree they have broadcast the proposition that science is too dangerous, and they have given prominence to ‘other ways of knowing,’ which they have put forward as more politically correct.

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Glamour Puss

TODAY’s OBSESSION:
Usually i’m obsessed with one item
but today, im obsessed with this ENTIRE OUTFIT!

And these shoes.. my Buddha… these SHOES!!!

 

TODAY’s LOOK:
Yes Sir.. I am a Glamour Puss!

SKIN: Belleza- Jesse in Deep Tan (group gift.. TY Tricky!!)
HAIR: Truth – Luna in Cocoa
TOP: Armidi – Kongo Chain Shirt in Gold
SKIRT: Zaara- Larin Skirt in Copper Rust
LINGERIE: Wanderer The Wind- Lingerie ver23 in Brown
(in shoe pic)
NECKLACE: Zaara- Karmuka in Wood Gold
BANGLES: Zaara- Pallav Amber Bracelets
SHOES: Anexx – Ribbon Belt Pumps in Brown
POSES: Vain Inc and Slash Me Poses

 

TODAY’s SONG:
Kylie Minogue – Love at First Sight
Dedicated to the new Larin skirt from Zaara!
(i’m sick..i know!)
And everything went from wrong to right
And the stars came out to fill up the sky
The music you were playing really blew my mind
It was love at first sight
‘Cause baby when I heard you
For the first time I knew
We were meant to be as one

 

I’ve been obsessing and waiting patiently for this new skirt form Zaara to be released. I went in Sat morning, just to see if it could possibly be out and i seriously squealed in all sorts of delight when i saw it on the new release wall!! I snatched it up quicker then i could let out an exhale of breath. Of course i bought the fat pack.. trust me on this ladies. BUY FAT PACKs, not only do you save Ls, but come on, you know you’ll want all the colors as soon as you see these amazing skirts. I immediately went home and figured out what shoe/top/hair/accessories combo i could put together so show im obvious love for this beautiful…. BEAUTIFUL skirt! So i came up with this look! Now usually, i’m obsessed with one thing in every outfit but today, honestly… i’m in love with it ALL! This entire look has got to be one of my favorites, so much so that i’ll be wearing it later when im on the Dating Casino game show! Lol, i’ll post up my soon to be embarrassing SL moment later…i can’t wait! I have friends who’ve been on the show and they all tell me its one of the best experiences they’ve had inworld.

*sighs* My Buddha.. i’m so in love with this look right now!

The Joy Diet, Ingredient #2: Truth

The Second Ingredient for Joy: Truth

It’s the end of my second week on the The Joy Diet, and the ante has been upped: incorporating the first ingredient, Nothing, and adding the second ingredient, Truth. Doing Nothing–or, in other terms, meditating–went better this week than the first. Walking meditation was my favored method of those mentioned in the book this week (i.e. repetitive motion), and, when the weather didn’t permit that, mantra, which is not mentioned in the book, but which, from past experience meditating, I know works well for me. I’m getting to that comfortable point with Nothing, wherein it’s easier for my mind to drop into stillness.

While I said easier, I didn’t say easy. (Even for many heavily-experienced meditators, getting the mind to be entirely silent is a challenge.) For the first four days I ended up doing the preliminary truth question, and leaving that day’s moment of Truth at that: Why am I avoiding stillness?

For those first four days, I was wanting to avoid stillness because I was behind in the self-paced writing course I’m taking, Juicy Journaling with SARK. (I took my 15 minutes anyway, but I procrastinated a lot.) This leads to…

Truth #1: I can be a very driven, overly-ambitious perfectionist, and this is not good for me. An example: at one point in my days in university, I was carrying two majors and a minor, with the heaviest class load my scholarship would allow, and making top marks. I was also not sleeping or eating worth a dime, having migraines often, being sick to my stomach several times a week, waking blue around the lips and nail beds from night terrors wherein I dreamed I was drowning, and, in short, coming apart at the seams from stress. I began to see every paper, test, homework assignment, and project as though it was of life and death importance. (The Truth: It wasn’t.) I eventually had to drop one of my majors to a minor to avoid being locked away in a rubber room. (I say that only half-jokingly.) And this memory came flooding back when daily life events put me behind in completing each day’s prompts for Juicy Journaling, as I was getting angry at myself because I wasn’t “applying myself” and finishing them each day. The real Truth: It’s self-paced. The prompts will still be there when I do have time. There are no grades. And SARK would not want me making myself stressed out over it, I’m sure.

After I realized that I could get behind on my self-paced e-course and not be a failure, other truths started bubbling up, though I admit that I didn’t go through the whole, drawn-out prescribed process and battery of questions outlined in the book. These were just Truths that landed on my figurative doorstep, bolts from the blue after my meditation or while messing around doing something mindless or via the ever-popular Truth vehicle of dreams.

Truth #2: No matter how many happy face stickers I try to stick over it, no matter how many swims I take in Denial, or how I try to hide it by living solely “in the moment”, that fact is: I’m not truly happy in my job or homelife, and things need to change. In fact, I had a dream after spending hours the night before trying to catch up on that e-course in which SARK showed up in my dream and asked me how much longer I was going to put up with things the way they are. Since this is a public forum, I’m not going to go into details, but it feels like I’m living in limbo, working a job that no longer challenges me or inspires me–if it ever did in the first place, of which I’m no longer sure–but does cause a whole mess of stress without even the benefit of health insurance or a reliable vacation, living with my parents to save money, and waiting to start really living the life that stars in my dreams every night rather than this much paler shadow of it.  It’s not to say that I don’t have good moments, or good days, but I think I could have a good year if I changed some things.

Truth #3:  I’m unsure of the timing in which to make the changes to address Truth #2, but I know things have to change, and it’s going to require a leap of faith.  I have it in the back of my mind that December 31st will be my last day at my draining job.  Since it doesn’t look like I’m going to get my week’s vacation this year, I will not be able to do much of what needs to be done to change my living location until after the job is done, as traveling very far afield can’t happen without taking time off work, so I am tentatively thinking I’ll take January to rest, get my head together, and get my things together to move, possibly cross-country, since there’s this one place that will not leave me alone–while awake or in dreams–and I think there must be a reason I feel so pulled there and a reason it feels so familiar though I’ve never been.   (That’s a whole ‘nother post.)  If all goes well, I’ll visit said place in January and, fingers crossed, lay the groundwork for my move, tentatively to happen in February.  Still, I’ll be leaving the security of my paycheck and rent-free housing with my parents.  That’s a bit frightening, and my more practical family–and my own Inner Critic–will bring up how illogical and ill-conceived this plan is.  I hope I’m brave, strong, and faithful enough to make that leap.

Truth #4:  In relation to Truths #2 and #3, if I stopped putting money into savings right now, I would have enough for a reasonable budget that would last 4 to 5 months with absolutely no money coming in, barring unforeseen major expenses of course, but I plan to add more every week until the end of the year.  Therefore, I shouldn’t be so petrified about money as security.  The whole point of living rent-free with my parents, and, since May, my little sister, was and is to save money to finance a move toward the big, wild, crazy dream, a better dating scene in hopes of finding that Special Someone, and–Universe willing–a more soul-nourishing occupation, or, at least, a less stressful one.   I have to make that leap sometime, or there’s no point.  That savings account is like a message from my Past Self (who was better at being full of hope and taking leaps) to my Future Self (who is terrified of leaps of faith, but terrified of remaining static at the same time), saying, “Go on.  Jump!  This is your safety net!  Remember?  You started weaving it years ago, and it will be fully ready to catch you soon!”

Truth #5:  I need to get out of my introvert’s comfort zone.  There are lots of reasons, but, chief among them being that it’s hard to make connections and show the world you care if you’re at your house or tucked away in a deserted part of the library or bookstore all the time.  This is not going to be easy, and may very well be uncomfortable, but it is necessary.

Given those five truths, I can definitely relate to what Martha Beck says in the chapter on Truth:

The practice of telling ourselves the truth is so simple and so freeing that you’d think we’d all do it constantly.  The fact is, however, that most people tell themselves the truth only in selected areas, and many of us lie to ourselves and others about practically everything we experience.  Why?  Because living behind a pane of glass, numbing and empty though it is, also feels safe.” — Martha Beck, The Joy Diet, p. 27

I’m sure that, as I keep up the practices of Nothing and Truth and head into Desire, more Truths–risky, uncomfortable Truths–will come up.  Thankfully, Risk is still a while off.  Haha.  I don’t think I’m entirely ready for that just yet.

All in all, Truth week has been a bumpy ride for me.  I think that’s why Beck prescribes Nothing (a.k.a. meditiation) first…To help you handle Truth.  Am I alone in this?  I think not.  Now that I have some Truths, though, I can choose what I do about them, and I can stop lying to myself while also “extending compassion to my Inner Lying Scumbag.”

How was Truth week for you, my fellow Joy Dieters?  Or, if you aren’t part of The Next Chapter (or not yet), what Truths are you hiding from yourself?  What would happen if you weren’t hiding them?